....my first 5k of the year!
It was fantastic. I went by myself. All alone. No one with me to hold my hand and calm my fears. Sure, both EK and El Hombre were only a call or a text message away and they had both given me my support just before starting the race, but no one was on the road with me and I finished.
This is HUGE for me. I've signed up to do a 5k by myself before and didn't even show up to the race because I let all my fears and anxiety of being too fat to run or laughed at by the real runners. Today, I learned that none of that will happen. I am a real runner. I might be slow and plod along the course, but I'm out there. I'm doing it. The others don't matter because I am not here to prove anything to them. The only person I need to prove something to is me.
I did that today. I proved that I could complete a race. I can do it. So today, I proved to myself that I can run in a 5k and I can do it in 50 minutes and 40 seconds. Next month, I will improve that time.
It was fantastic. I went by myself. All alone. No one with me to hold my hand and calm my fears. Sure, both EK and El Hombre were only a call or a text message away and they had both given me my support just before starting the race, but no one was on the road with me and I finished.
This is HUGE for me. I've signed up to do a 5k by myself before and didn't even show up to the race because I let all my fears and anxiety of being too fat to run or laughed at by the real runners. Today, I learned that none of that will happen. I am a real runner. I might be slow and plod along the course, but I'm out there. I'm doing it. The others don't matter because I am not here to prove anything to them. The only person I need to prove something to is me.
I did that today. I proved that I could complete a race. I can do it. So today, I proved to myself that I can run in a 5k and I can do it in 50 minutes and 40 seconds. Next month, I will improve that time.
2 comments:
I'm sooo proud of you!!! and I needed these words of encouragement more than you know. :)
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